Thursday, January 29, 2009

Because I should be studying...

...and my mind is elsewhere thinking about Meme in the hospital (she has pneumonia, please pray for her very quick recovery).

So I shall post pictures to make me happy :)

Now, I really have to study.

Thanks for the distraction and goodnight

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

30 random facts about lil' ole me.

1. I have been homesick for North Carolina going on 2 years come May '09, it isn't getting any better. Maybe this has to do with the fact that we had 2 weeks to pack up our belongings, find a house and me find a job. Just a little stressfull and I had no time to say goodbye to alot of people.

2. I absolutely positively MUST have closure. See above.

3. I have a touch of OCD mixed with a little ADD.

4. I am extremely dedicated and extremely compassionate when it comes to taking care of sick animals. They just melt my heart, and I want to help them with every part of my being.

5. I CANNOT stand smacking noises that accompany people chewing with their mouth open, or any sound that resembles licking, or chewing. It drives me up the wall and I will snap at any given moment if I am unable to escape the noise.

6. I am 26 and now wear a hearing aid. While I am extremely grateful for the remaining hearing I have left, it saddens me just a little bit that I am 26 with a hearing aid.

7. This past November is probably not going to be my last ear surgery and after every surgery I say that I will never have surgery again. But this past one was #6 and I am scared of how many more I will have to have.

8. Sometimes I feel like my life has been ripped apart and will never be glued back together again, and when I think of what happened/is happening, it makes me cry and I cannot go down that dark road, so then I have to think of something else. Immediately.

9. I get really sad and worried about random things at night. When I wake up after sleeping all night I don't feel so worried or sad anymore.

10. I worry about pretty much everything. I also analyze things WAY too much. It drives me nuts.

11. I am having alot of trouble 'letting go' of being #1 caretaker of my horse since moving him to his new barn. Since his injury in March 2008 I worry profusely about his well being and whether or not another freak accident will happen. I pray almost every day for God to keep him safe because surely if he gets injured again I will need to be commited to a mental institute. He will be 15 in March and I have had him since I was 12. I buy more things for him than I do myself and I cannot tell you the last time I went shopping for myself. It brings me comfort to see animals comforted by what I do for them, especially Tuff.

12. It makes me sad to see homeless people that are obviously homeless (dirty, scruffy and rugged looking), my instinct is to look away and ignore them, but then I think they're people too and want to have some type of human contact. How would you feel if no one ever looked at you and acted as if you don't exist? You never know what their situation is, and it's not mine to judge, just show a little compassion. I rarely carry cash so I can't give them money but atleast I can show compassion towards them. It makes me feel better anyway.

13. Uriah left for Virginia on Sunday night, 1 hour after he left the lonliess was unbearable and I don't see how people leave their spouses for the war. He is definately my other half and I feel lost without him.

14. I LOVE music. I love to listen to every kind of music (except for hard rock and gangsta rap-ha). I love to 'feel' music. It always takes me to a different place and can make me feel all sorts of emotions.

15. I've played the violin since the 6th grade. Since I have some extra free time on my hands from not having to horse sit every day now, I took it out to play only to find that all my strings are dead and 2 of them snapped off as I tried to tune it. Time for 4 new strings. I don't need a tuner to tune it to because I can hear the "A" being played back in my mind from all the mornings of it being played loud in orchestra in school while 20 people tuned their instruments.

16. I feel like I am never going to finish school.

17. I have no idea what I want to do as a career when I do finish school. I do know that it must be with animals, preferably horses, somehow, someway.

18. My ultimate dream job would be to have my own horse facility in which I would offer boarding, starting under saddle, and breeding with my own stallion that would be in high demand because of the characteristics he possessed performing and in confirmation. I love to design my own barn in my head.

19. The person I would love to meet is someone that hardly anyone else knows. Monty Roberts- Google him. Now.

20. I get along much better with guys than I do girls. I don't know why.

21. I am constantly late to practically everything. I hate it. See #3

22. I miss my papaw and grandmother terribly but find comfort in both of them being together again in heaven without cancer.

23. One of my happy places is my papaws big red barn and all the hubub that used to be there during shows and trail rides.

24. I would without a doubt pack up everything I own and move to Alaska right now. The beauty of the place is indescribable. There are no words for anything else, I felt so much at peace when I was there.

25. I think there is something special about a hand written letter that no email, no telephone call, no e-card can touch. I love to write them for family back home.

26. I am taller than my husband. It took me a year to realize that. I was in secret denial. He slouches, so really we're the same height right?

27. Raising a child scares me.

28. Horses, scrapbooking and drawing are all medicines of mine. In that particular order.

29. I tend to scare myself when I am alone. I have such a vivid imagination that the dark really scares me. I cannot allow myself to watch horror movies for this reason. The last one I saw was 6 years ago and I had trouble sleeping for months. I haven't allowed myself to watch any since. I can't even watch horror film trailers when they come on tv.

30. I love to sleep. I also require alot of it. I can make myself sleep even if I am not tired. There is something about my bed, and my warm comfy covers that make me relax immediately and the world is a better place when i'm all warm and snuggly.

Thanks for reading!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

I almost forgot!

I almost forgot one of the reasons why I was visiting the doctor last week! It's a very exciting reason. Well, for me anyway. I got my hearing aid! I am still adjusting to it. It's wierd being 'in stereo'. Not having full hearing in my left ear for goodness knows how long and now having an aid is a little hard to get used to, in a good way of course. There are a few things that I need to tweek. But it is very beneficial. There are alot of special gadgets on these things that you wouldn't even begin to think would be possible on something so tiny. You can barely see mine, and if I didn't tell you, you would never know I was wearing one. Of course I can't sleep with it in, or get it wet, and I don't think i'm going to ride with it on, just in case it jiggles out. Otherwise when I wear it correctly and it is in properly I can barely tell it is in. Putting it in is a bit difficult just because I have always had this thing about shoving tiny things inside my ear, it was always a bad thing. Getting used to it as a good thing is a little difficult and sometimes it feels funny but it is already growing on me. I made a video to email to family, and it's too big to post, so pictures will just have to do.

This week is going to be a little wearing on me. First and most important reason is that Uriah will be spending his week in classes training all week, I miss him terribly already and it hasn't even been 3 hours yet. UUGH! Second, I have my first full week of classes and getting back into the swing of things might be tiring, but I am surprisingly excited...I think I have a good teacher for this class.

Third, of course I will be worried about Tuff and his new home and whether or not he likes his new digs and is making new friends. It has almost been a year since he got injured and having spent every single day of my life except for the rare weekends that I went to NC and the month I had surgery and couldn't go to the barn, aside from those days, I have spent every day with that horse. Every day wrapping and unwrapping and rewrapping, and sweating, and injecting antibiotics in his neck, crushing horse sized pills into grain, walking, grazing, standing for hours on end just to get his mind occupied on something other than 'why can't I run', scooping poop, shoveling saw dust, driving only God knows how many hours all in the name of one horse. All for the sake of my Tuffy. Now, he's 25 minutes away, in another person's hopefully trustworthy hands, with myself unable to watch him with a close eye. His leg will never ever be the same, so I will always worry, but now I feel a little lost not knowing what to do with a little extra free time. But call me crazy, all the blood (not his) sweat and tears (all mine) I wouldn't trade for a second (of course I wish none of it happened to begin with, but this is me trying to find the silver lining) because all the time I spent with Tuff he always got me through something. Always took my mind off of things that bothered me. Work problems disappeared, family drama disappeared, just me and my horse, and the days that I did get to ride him, he carried me around, proud as a peacock that he was able to be ridden again, and everything through the ears of my red headed son, uh-em, horse was right and perfect. Nothing could touch me. I was definately bitten by the horse bug a long time ago, and once you've been bitten, nothing can take it away. So if anyone reading this has a friend, family member in love with horses, it's too late, the deed is already done. The best thing you can do is to just let it happen. Just let it happen is all the advice I can give you. Boy, that was a long walk down memory lane. Sorry about that...I am a little (okay alot) passionate about all things horsey. So...with that said, I hope everyone has a good Monday, and do try to stay warm :)


Saturday, January 17, 2009


JUST fabulous! That would be a good word for today! I spent 9 hours at a place called Maryland Horse World Expo. I had a very very fun time and enjoyed being surrounded by horsey people. I saw a awesome trick horse trainer, his name was Tommy Turvey, just google him, or go to and type his name in and there are some fabulous horse videos of him doing stunts and tricks. He and his horses have also been in the movie Larry the Cable Guy if you've ever seen it. It's amazing at what he can make them do so willingly. Today's demo was on 'laying your horse down', but I was treated by another demonstration where he did a slew of other tricks with a 16 year old paint horse that he bought from an auction when he (the horse) was 4. So very cool.

I know in my last post I said that I would take pictures of Tuff in his new winter gear but y'all it was freezing cold and my fingers didn't feel like freezing off into little crisps, so I didn't take any pictures. It'll be okay, just use your imagination. Tuff is red, blanket is green, pretty colors, there you got a good picture right? Maybe i'll take a picture as I 'de-layer' him and strip him of his fleece blanket liner once it gets above let's say maybe 10. Maybe. Sorry.

And to top off today's fabulousness Uriah tells me to look in the fridge for a surprise. My husband is the best and he got me a hot fudge sundae. YUUUUUUUUM! It hit the spot.

Hope y'all are doing great, try to stay warm.


Friday, January 16, 2009

Feelin' a lot better

...but now I have this thing in my neck that hurts when I touch it, and is most obviously a 'lump'. I made an appointment to see the doctor next Wednesday at 9:45am, but still, i'm worried. There are alot of thyroid issues in my family so that is on my mind, not to mention the occasional xray I take at work without my thyroid guard because, you know, when i'm taking pelvis x-rays on a giant german shepherd with painful hips they don't really care about me forgetting my thyroid guard. They just want to get off the xray table, perhaps see if I taste like chicken, or you know, relieve themselves on my scrubs...hey it happens. Me on the other hand stopping to say, excuse me Mr. German Shepherd, would you mind just holding still on your back for 15 seconds while I scooch on over there and grab my guard isn't going to go over well. I'm sure my fellow employees helping me with the xrays don't really care at that point either. And frankly, it is the least of my concerns in the midst of things. I just want to hear the beep on the machine telling me we're done and I can get out of my lead suit. Eh, I promise to be more prepared from now on.

So, moving on. Is it or is it not cold this week!? I don't know how the weather is in your area, but today it was a whopping 16 as a high. Thats right 1-6. Tonight is a warm low of 6. I'm gonna head on down the road to put Tuff's jammies on and tuck him in bed with lots of layers. I promise to document his wardrobe for tonight and post with pictures. And as more exciting weather news, tomorrow is supposed to snow! People, i've been looking forward to this weekend for atleast a month. Why do you ask? Because it is the Maryland Horse Expo! This is one of the few reasons why I like (not love) Maryland, because they do have alot of love for horses up here. And that means i'm happy. So tomorrow= horses paired with snow= terrific!

Time to go bundle up!


Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Feelin' a lot under the weather

I don't know what it is, but I just can't shake this funk that i'm in. I feel sick nearly all the hours that i'm awake. It started last Friday with a fever, nausea, dizziness, and exhaustion. Now it's just nausea, exhaustion, no appetite, sour stomach and all. I really hope this will go away soon. Anyone feeling the same way? Ugh. Yesterday, I came home from work at 330- went to bed at 530, and slept until the next morning at 830. Yes, I slept that long. Felt great when I woke up, it lasted all day, and then BAM, now I feel like I could hurl. So on that note. I'm going to bed! Goodnight! :)


Saturday, January 10, 2009


Uriah and I celebrated Christmas late with our families this year, and I just thought i'd share some pictures, as random as they may be. For some reason, I didn't document our visit with his side of the family this year. Hmmm. What a shame. :( So, here are some from Christmas in January with my mom and dad, and some random others.

Uriah's opportunity to make fun of me while i'm sick on my stomach going IN to surgery. Who loves 20 Gauge catheters shoved in their vein!? I do! I do! Barf.
We returned home to a 'winter wonderland' on the drive home, the trees were covered in ice. Then we got to our house and everything had melted. Go figure.

Sleeping beauty: She is rarely awake during a car ride.

Visiting with meme and papaw.

It's a cover for my riding helmet with a built in neck warmer! Genius!

A break from cooking steak and shrimp, mashed potatoes, steamed green beans, sauteed mushrooms, pumpkin crunch, brownies, chocolate chip cookies and chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. YUM :)

A cutie patootie that came to visit for the New Years dinner I mentioned in my last post. Meet the 4 month old responsible for the baby bug. (Which will hold off until we move back to NC and I finish school, just in case you guys were wondering!)


Austin sleeping, which is usually her state during the whole 8 hour ride. That's all for now! Gonna go eat 'lunch'! Enjoy!

Friday, January 9, 2009

I gots the creepy crud.

I don't know what's going on today, but I suddenly, like within 30 minutes felt like i'd been hit by a truck! I made it out the door to work, and was hit but a frigid gust of wind, and was officially aware of how awful I felt. I really hate calling out of work sick, so I mustered up enough strength to go ahead, only to stay for 45 minutes and back home, to the bed I went! I had 2 really big blankets on me, thick wool socks, pants, long sleeve t-shirt, and was STILL freezing! I cranked the heat up and nothing helped. Sure enough, I had a very low fever of 99.7. Enough to make me feel crummy. I had chills and goosebumps, was slightly dizzy and was achy all over, not cool. I did have a flu shot back in November so i'm wondering if I didn't have that done, would I have felt worse? I feel a LOT better right now, maybe it was a 10 hour bug? Or maybe Motrin is hiding all of my symptoms right now and it will hit me like a ton of bricks when it runs out. I sure hope that it goes away for good by 8am tomorrow morning because a girl has to work! Right now i'm just super duper tired.

I do apologize for not posting something recently, and the last few posts have been non eventful links to songs and such, I did have a fabulous Christmas, I hope you all did as well. It was nice and UN-eventful, which is always appreciated. It was just a nice quiet evening with Uriah, and we had a big breakfast and opened our gifts. I was very excited to actually surprise Uriah this year with a gift. It is extremely hard to get one over on him. I purchased (2) 8x10 photos of our wedding, black and white pictures of us saying our vows to each other, and I also purchased a Garmin nuvi 200w GPS! Let me just tell you, it is amazing and I have no idea how we got around without it. It is so cool! Need to find a carribbean themed restaurant? Gas station? Shopping? Hospital? Just click on 'points of interest' and there you have it. Fabulous. Just fabulous. We also enjoyed a post Christmas dinner with our old Neighbors who moved down the street and had a lovely dinner at their house. It was very delicious and I could have possibly been bitten slightly by the 'baby bug'...i'm just sayin'. They have a cute little 4 month old, and a 4 year old who is so well behaved. I haven't been around many 4 year olds, but he just seems very well behaved, and very artistic for his age. We also had a New Years Day dinner with them (at my house this time), where we enjoyed losts of good food and a new board game.

Anyway, I think my poor husband is done shopping for my craving of blueberry waffles at the store now, so i'm gonna go eat. I didn't really have an appetite for anything much after eating soup galore today, waffles sounded delicious, and so out he went. I couldn't have asked for a better husband. He even took care of Tuff for me today. Oh, I am so blessed.

Be on the watch for some pictures in the next couple of days!