Thursday, May 29, 2008

Busy as a bee!

Hey Guys,

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Things have been VERY hectic. We have officially moved into our 'new' house. We are still settling in and have about 10 more boxes to unpack but for the most part have the major things done. This house is about 14 years old, which is a LOT different than the first house we moved to when we came to MD. I miss it already! :( This house has a fenced in yard and a deck which is nice but has a small kitchen and is overall smaller. We had to sell our ping pong table because we didn't have a garage to put it in. Whoever bought it go the best darn pingpong table possible for $20.00. Ridiculously good deal. It was practically brand new! I will post pictures of the new house soon. Too many things going on now.

A friend is visiting this weekend and we will be going to a Philly/Marlins baseball game on Saturday in Philadelphia, and then a Orioles/Red Sox baseball game in Baltimore on Sunday. BUSY!

The latest on Tuff is rather frustrating. The guy that I used to trust taking care of Tuff is soon going to lose that priveledge. He slipped up and left Tuff's gate unlocked to his stall and of course Tuff took full advantage of it and ran out down the pasture taking off like a horse does that has been pinned up for 2 months. I can only imagine the damage that was done. I told the guy he better say a little prayer that nothing goes wrong. He kept apologizing, but what was I supposed to say? 'Oh don't worry about it, I LOVE spending thousands of dollars on my horse only to see it to be blown away in the wind'? YOU IDIOT!!! I seriously don't think he realizes the seriousness of this recovery period. I really would love to tear him to shreds right now and it makes me angry thinking about it. His soberness at the time is also questionable which infuriates me even more. I am moving Tuff to a closer barn as soon as he recovers. I do not want to stress him out to bring him to a new situation, especially since he is already stressed with him being stalled 24/7. So people please pray and cross your fingers for excellent results on the ultrasound Tuff needs to have on June 21st! Almost there!!!!

I am looking for a new job also. I went on a working interview yesterday at a specialty clinic in orthopedics and sports medicine. It would be a very physicaly job (I am sore today from working yesterday) but alot of extra benefits that I don't get now. My favorite is having ALL WEEKENDS OFF, HOLIDAYS TOO!! I would also have the chance to get paid more! I would have benefits. Now I have none! I would even get to have an occasional 3 day weekend since they do'nt require full staff on Friday's. They're surgery's are very up to date and it was very fun to sit in on them. I saw alot of things that i've never seen before... I find out in a week or so as soon as they interview everyone to see if I get the job. I have mixed feelings about it right now, but I figure if God wants me to have this job, it'll happen. If I am not the right person for the job, then no sweat, just gonna move on to the next opportunity. But anything is definately better where I am currently working...my favorite co worker is moving away to Texas leaving me with the worst case of 'girl-who-cried-wolf of a co-worker I have ever worked with. My days are definately numbered there.

Anyway, I had a bad day. A broken kitchen drawer fell off the tract and slammed into my blue glas pitcher vase that mom got me for my bridal shower :( Actually i've felt like i've had a bad week. I just want to collapse in a bed for about 20 hours and rest. Every part of my body aches and I am so sleepy. You can probably tell i'm tired right now because I am griping alot. (sorry---moving on!)

Some good news! 25 more days until we go to Alaska!!! I very much need a nice relaxing vacation with my favorite person/aka Uriah. YAAAAAAAAAAY. I am so very excited!! I will be sure to take lots of pictures and short videos with my camera and share them with you!!! :) Anyways, time to go unpack some more boxes. I'll post pictures soon.

Love,

Lindsay

Friday, May 9, 2008

Madly

Welcome to my first blog entry! I have so much housework to do seeing as how we have people coming to view the house in the afternoon, but I just feel really compelled to sit down and start a blog. I have been thinking about it for about 2 weeks since I read Angie and Audrey's journey in their blog that really moved me in a way that I can't begin to describe (I strongly recommend looking at it and reading a few posts at the very least if you haven't already---it's one heck of a story--->Angie and Audrey's Story

So, since then I have been on this 'journey' with the Lord I feel. Today I had a really wierd moment. I was just really struck by the lyrics to a song while I was driving down the road towards the barn. Tiffany downloaded a bunch of praise and worship songs for me a couple of months ago to help me get through a rough part, and I know I heard this song on the CD before today, but the song just sent me into the ugly cry, complete with sobs and tears. I am sure I attracted alot of funny looks passing folks, but I just couldn't help it. It felt good. It is called 'Madly in Love with You' by Sean McConnell.

The song caught me so off guard because it is from God's perspective looking down on us. It made me feel a little foolish and ashamed at how often He tries to speak to us, but we just choose to ignore or come back 'later' to the little voice in the back of our head.

Then I heard these words:

"How do you think it feels to hear you screaming out my name
While all the while I'm trying to open up your heart
I see you when you're cry yourself to sleep
It's tearing me apart"

That really opened the flood gates and I began to think about all the times i've cried for help so to speak and the whole time He was just right there. I just had to open up my heart.

I know I am not perfect, I know I have my faults, but I know better to bring my thoughts and concerns, praises etc. to Jesus. Sometimes I forget. Not proud to admit that. But lately I feel like HE has been screaming my name to listen to Him. I am more aware of all the things that i'm thankful for, trying to be a person that people want to approach to ask me about my new found refreshed faith (that part is hard, I wouldn't know what to say if they asked, that wouldn't turn them off and make them think i'm crazy), I have found it fun to listen to the Christian music station up here to see what I can learn in each new song, listening for what can inspire me next, and try to let God present himself to me in a new way. I guess what i'm saying is that i've been a believer for a long time, never stopped believing, never stopped trusting God, but I just feel refreshed! Refreshed by a little drink I like to call Jesus. It feels good :) HA!

Here are the lyrics of the song "Madly in love with you":

I see you down there everyday
Trying to find a different way
To build some kind of latter to the sky
Trying to find someway to see
The secrets of eternity
And they don't come all at once
And you don't know why

How do you think it feels to hear you screaming out my name
While all the while I'm trying to open up your heart
I see you when you're cry yourself to sleep
It's tearing me apart

I know you wish you could see me
But that's the way it has to be
Someday you will understand
But don't you lose your faith in me
I know you wish you could hear me
Sometimes it's so hard to do
But every morning sunrise says
I'm madly in love with you
Yes, I'm madly in love with you
Yes, I'm madly in love with you
Yes, I'm madly in love with you

I know that you're waiting for
A chance to come in from the war
If only a moment, If only a day
A place where you feel safe and warm
A sanctuary from the storm
Until all of these questions fade away

But I cannot count all of the signs that you've passed away as mere coincidence
And I'm running out of ways to break through
But like a lonely lover waiting by the ocean
I'll never give up on you

I know you wish you could see
But that's the way it has to be
Someday you will understand
But don't you lose your faith in me
I know you wish you could hear me
Sometimes it's so hard to do
But every morning sunrise says
I'm madly in love with you
Yes, I'm madly in love with you
Yes, I'm madly in love with you
Yes, I'm madly in love with you


To know that he'll never give up on me I can't even begin to describe that feeling. Despite all of my failures, he will always love me. Period.


So I ask for your help to help me embrace this newness, and pray that I find a church up here that suits us, (churches are slim pickin's up here, especially a babtist one) and to learn how to carry myself in this journey in case God chooses to use me as a example.

I will be updating this blog now that I have it started with random events, funny stories, my journey with Christ, and every other little odd thing. Its easier and fun to update this way, rather than have to tell the same stories 38 times.

And of course, how can I forget to share the link to the song that made my day:

Click on 'Madly in Love with you' on the right side of the screen, it is the 5th song down on the music player, just click on the title of the song. It should start playing. Enjoy and God Bless!

Sean McConnell, Madly in love with you:

Time to clean!

Love,

Lindsay


PS. Please leave a comment for me, I feel a little 'naked' exposing myself with all my feelings and not getting any input from you guys.