So I shall post pictures to make me happy :)
Now, I really have to study. Thanks for the distraction and goodnight
Lindsay
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Because I should be studying...
...and my mind is elsewhere thinking about Meme in the hospital (she has pneumonia, please pray for her very quick recovery).
So I shall post pictures to make me happy :)
Now, I really have to study.
Thanks for the distraction and goodnight
So I shall post pictures to make me happy :)
Now, I really have to study. Thanks for the distraction and goodnight
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
30 random facts about lil' ole me.
1. I have been homesick for North Carolina going on 2 years come May '09, it isn't getting any better. Maybe this has to do with the fact that we had 2 weeks to pack up our belongings, find a house and me find a job. Just a little stressfull and I had no time to say goodbye to alot of people.
2. I absolutely positively MUST have closure. See above.
3. I have a touch of OCD mixed with a little ADD.
4. I am extremely dedicated and extremely compassionate when it comes to taking care of sick animals. They just melt my heart, and I want to help them with every part of my being.
5. I CANNOT stand smacking noises that accompany people chewing with their mouth open, or any sound that resembles licking, or chewing. It drives me up the wall and I will snap at any given moment if I am unable to escape the noise.
6. I am 26 and now wear a hearing aid. While I am extremely grateful for the remaining hearing I have left, it saddens me just a little bit that I am 26 with a hearing aid.
7. This past November is probably not going to be my last ear surgery and after every surgery I say that I will never have surgery again. But this past one was #6 and I am scared of how many more I will have to have.
8. Sometimes I feel like my life has been ripped apart and will never be glued back together again, and when I think of what happened/is happening, it makes me cry and I cannot go down that dark road, so then I have to think of something else. Immediately.
9. I get really sad and worried about random things at night. When I wake up after sleeping all night I don't feel so worried or sad anymore.
10. I worry about pretty much everything. I also analyze things WAY too much. It drives me nuts.
11. I am having alot of trouble 'letting go' of being #1 caretaker of my horse since moving him to his new barn. Since his injury in March 2008 I worry profusely about his well being and whether or not another freak accident will happen. I pray almost every day for God to keep him safe because surely if he gets injured again I will need to be commited to a mental institute. He will be 15 in March and I have had him since I was 12. I buy more things for him than I do myself and I cannot tell you the last time I went shopping for myself. It brings me comfort to see animals comforted by what I do for them, especially Tuff.
12. It makes me sad to see homeless people that are obviously homeless (dirty, scruffy and rugged looking), my instinct is to look away and ignore them, but then I think they're people too and want to have some type of human contact. How would you feel if no one ever looked at you and acted as if you don't exist? You never know what their situation is, and it's not mine to judge, just show a little compassion. I rarely carry cash so I can't give them money but atleast I can show compassion towards them. It makes me feel better anyway.
13. Uriah left for Virginia on Sunday night, 1 hour after he left the lonliess was unbearable and I don't see how people leave their spouses for the war. He is definately my other half and I feel lost without him.
14. I LOVE music. I love to listen to every kind of music (except for hard rock and gangsta rap-ha). I love to 'feel' music. It always takes me to a different place and can make me feel all sorts of emotions.
15. I've played the violin since the 6th grade. Since I have some extra free time on my hands from not having to horse sit every day now, I took it out to play only to find that all my strings are dead and 2 of them snapped off as I tried to tune it. Time for 4 new strings. I don't need a tuner to tune it to because I can hear the "A" being played back in my mind from all the mornings of it being played loud in orchestra in school while 20 people tuned their instruments.
16. I feel like I am never going to finish school.
17. I have no idea what I want to do as a career when I do finish school. I do know that it must be with animals, preferably horses, somehow, someway.
18. My ultimate dream job would be to have my own horse facility in which I would offer boarding, starting under saddle, and breeding with my own stallion that would be in high demand because of the characteristics he possessed performing and in confirmation. I love to design my own barn in my head.
19. The person I would love to meet is someone that hardly anyone else knows. Monty Roberts- Google him. Now.
20. I get along much better with guys than I do girls. I don't know why.
21. I am constantly late to practically everything. I hate it. See #3
22. I miss my papaw and grandmother terribly but find comfort in both of them being together again in heaven without cancer.
23. One of my happy places is my papaws big red barn and all the hubub that used to be there during shows and trail rides.
24. I would without a doubt pack up everything I own and move to Alaska right now. The beauty of the place is indescribable. There are no words for anything else, I felt so much at peace when I was there.
25. I think there is something special about a hand written letter that no email, no telephone call, no e-card can touch. I love to write them for family back home.
26. I am taller than my husband. It took me a year to realize that. I was in secret denial. He slouches, so really we're the same height right?
27. Raising a child scares me.
28. Horses, scrapbooking and drawing are all medicines of mine. In that particular order.
29. I tend to scare myself when I am alone. I have such a vivid imagination that the dark really scares me. I cannot allow myself to watch horror movies for this reason. The last one I saw was 6 years ago and I had trouble sleeping for months. I haven't allowed myself to watch any since. I can't even watch horror film trailers when they come on tv.
30. I love to sleep. I also require alot of it. I can make myself sleep even if I am not tired. There is something about my bed, and my warm comfy covers that make me relax immediately and the world is a better place when i'm all warm and snuggly.
Thanks for reading!
2. I absolutely positively MUST have closure. See above.
3. I have a touch of OCD mixed with a little ADD.
4. I am extremely dedicated and extremely compassionate when it comes to taking care of sick animals. They just melt my heart, and I want to help them with every part of my being.
5. I CANNOT stand smacking noises that accompany people chewing with their mouth open, or any sound that resembles licking, or chewing. It drives me up the wall and I will snap at any given moment if I am unable to escape the noise.
6. I am 26 and now wear a hearing aid. While I am extremely grateful for the remaining hearing I have left, it saddens me just a little bit that I am 26 with a hearing aid.
7. This past November is probably not going to be my last ear surgery and after every surgery I say that I will never have surgery again. But this past one was #6 and I am scared of how many more I will have to have.
8. Sometimes I feel like my life has been ripped apart and will never be glued back together again, and when I think of what happened/is happening, it makes me cry and I cannot go down that dark road, so then I have to think of something else. Immediately.
9. I get really sad and worried about random things at night. When I wake up after sleeping all night I don't feel so worried or sad anymore.
10. I worry about pretty much everything. I also analyze things WAY too much. It drives me nuts.
11. I am having alot of trouble 'letting go' of being #1 caretaker of my horse since moving him to his new barn. Since his injury in March 2008 I worry profusely about his well being and whether or not another freak accident will happen. I pray almost every day for God to keep him safe because surely if he gets injured again I will need to be commited to a mental institute. He will be 15 in March and I have had him since I was 12. I buy more things for him than I do myself and I cannot tell you the last time I went shopping for myself. It brings me comfort to see animals comforted by what I do for them, especially Tuff.
12. It makes me sad to see homeless people that are obviously homeless (dirty, scruffy and rugged looking), my instinct is to look away and ignore them, but then I think they're people too and want to have some type of human contact. How would you feel if no one ever looked at you and acted as if you don't exist? You never know what their situation is, and it's not mine to judge, just show a little compassion. I rarely carry cash so I can't give them money but atleast I can show compassion towards them. It makes me feel better anyway.
13. Uriah left for Virginia on Sunday night, 1 hour after he left the lonliess was unbearable and I don't see how people leave their spouses for the war. He is definately my other half and I feel lost without him.
14. I LOVE music. I love to listen to every kind of music (except for hard rock and gangsta rap-ha). I love to 'feel' music. It always takes me to a different place and can make me feel all sorts of emotions.
15. I've played the violin since the 6th grade. Since I have some extra free time on my hands from not having to horse sit every day now, I took it out to play only to find that all my strings are dead and 2 of them snapped off as I tried to tune it. Time for 4 new strings. I don't need a tuner to tune it to because I can hear the "A" being played back in my mind from all the mornings of it being played loud in orchestra in school while 20 people tuned their instruments.
16. I feel like I am never going to finish school.
17. I have no idea what I want to do as a career when I do finish school. I do know that it must be with animals, preferably horses, somehow, someway.
18. My ultimate dream job would be to have my own horse facility in which I would offer boarding, starting under saddle, and breeding with my own stallion that would be in high demand because of the characteristics he possessed performing and in confirmation. I love to design my own barn in my head.
19. The person I would love to meet is someone that hardly anyone else knows. Monty Roberts- Google him. Now.
20. I get along much better with guys than I do girls. I don't know why.
21. I am constantly late to practically everything. I hate it. See #3
22. I miss my papaw and grandmother terribly but find comfort in both of them being together again in heaven without cancer.
23. One of my happy places is my papaws big red barn and all the hubub that used to be there during shows and trail rides.
24. I would without a doubt pack up everything I own and move to Alaska right now. The beauty of the place is indescribable. There are no words for anything else, I felt so much at peace when I was there.
25. I think there is something special about a hand written letter that no email, no telephone call, no e-card can touch. I love to write them for family back home.
26. I am taller than my husband. It took me a year to realize that. I was in secret denial. He slouches, so really we're the same height right?
27. Raising a child scares me.
28. Horses, scrapbooking and drawing are all medicines of mine. In that particular order.
29. I tend to scare myself when I am alone. I have such a vivid imagination that the dark really scares me. I cannot allow myself to watch horror movies for this reason. The last one I saw was 6 years ago and I had trouble sleeping for months. I haven't allowed myself to watch any since. I can't even watch horror film trailers when they come on tv.
30. I love to sleep. I also require alot of it. I can make myself sleep even if I am not tired. There is something about my bed, and my warm comfy covers that make me relax immediately and the world is a better place when i'm all warm and snuggly.
Thanks for reading!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I almost forgot!
I almost forgot one of the reasons why I was visiting the doctor last week! It's a very exciting reason. Well, for me anyway. I got my hearing aid! I am still adjusting to it. It's wierd being 'in stereo'. Not having full hearing in my left ear for goodness knows how long and now having an aid is a little hard to get used to, in a good way of course. There are a few things that I need to tweek. But it is very beneficial. There are alot of special gadgets on these things that you wouldn't even begin to think would be possible on something so tiny. You can barely see mine, and if I didn't tell you, you would never know I was wearing one. Of course I can't sleep with it in, or get it wet, and I don't think i'm going to ride with it on, just in case it jiggles out. Otherwise when I wear it correctly and it is in properly I can barely tell it is in. Putting it in is a bit difficult just because I have always had this thing about shoving tiny things inside my ear, it was always a bad thing. Getting used to it as a good thing is a little difficult and sometimes it feels funny but it is already growing on me. I made a video to email to family, and it's too big to post, so pictures will just have to do.
This week is going to be a little wearing on me. First and most important reason is that Uriah will be spending his week in classes training all week, I miss him terribly already and it hasn't even been 3 hours yet. UUGH! Second, I have my first full week of classes and getting back into the swing of things might be tiring, but I am surprisingly excited...I think I have a good teacher for this class.
Third, of course I will be worried about Tuff and his new home and whether or not he likes his new digs and is making new friends. It has almost been a year since he got injured and having spent every single day of my life except for the rare weekends that I went to NC and the month I had surgery and couldn't go to the barn, aside from those days, I have spent every day with that horse. Every day wrapping and unwrapping and rewrapping, and sweating, and injecting antibiotics in his neck, crushing horse sized pills into grain, walking, grazing, standing for hours on end just to get his mind occupied on something other than 'why can't I run', scooping poop, shoveling saw dust, driving only God knows how many hours all in the name of one horse. All for the sake of my Tuffy. Now, he's 25 minutes away, in another person's hopefully trustworthy hands, with myself unable to watch him with a close eye. His leg will never ever be the same, so I will always worry, but now I feel a little lost not knowing what to do with a little extra free time. But call me crazy, all the blood (not his) sweat and tears (all mine) I wouldn't trade for a second (of course I wish none of it happened to begin with, but this is me trying to find the silver lining) because all the time I spent with Tuff he always got me through something. Always took my mind off of things that bothered me. Work problems disappeared, family drama disappeared, just me and my horse, and the days that I did get to ride him, he carried me around, proud as a peacock that he was able to be ridden again, and everything through the ears of my red headed son, uh-em, horse was right and perfect. Nothing could touch me. I was definately bitten by the horse bug a long time ago, and once you've been bitten, nothing can take it away. So if anyone reading this has a friend, family member in love with horses, it's too late, the deed is already done. The best thing you can do is to just let it happen. Just let it happen is all the advice I can give you. Boy, that was a long walk down memory lane. Sorry about that...I am a little (okay alot) passionate about all things horsey. So...with that said, I hope everyone has a good Monday, and do try to stay warm :)
Lindsay
This week is going to be a little wearing on me. First and most important reason is that Uriah will be spending his week in classes training all week, I miss him terribly already and it hasn't even been 3 hours yet. UUGH! Second, I have my first full week of classes and getting back into the swing of things might be tiring, but I am surprisingly excited...I think I have a good teacher for this class.
Third, of course I will be worried about Tuff and his new home and whether or not he likes his new digs and is making new friends. It has almost been a year since he got injured and having spent every single day of my life except for the rare weekends that I went to NC and the month I had surgery and couldn't go to the barn, aside from those days, I have spent every day with that horse. Every day wrapping and unwrapping and rewrapping, and sweating, and injecting antibiotics in his neck, crushing horse sized pills into grain, walking, grazing, standing for hours on end just to get his mind occupied on something other than 'why can't I run', scooping poop, shoveling saw dust, driving only God knows how many hours all in the name of one horse. All for the sake of my Tuffy. Now, he's 25 minutes away, in another person's hopefully trustworthy hands, with myself unable to watch him with a close eye. His leg will never ever be the same, so I will always worry, but now I feel a little lost not knowing what to do with a little extra free time. But call me crazy, all the blood (not his) sweat and tears (all mine) I wouldn't trade for a second (of course I wish none of it happened to begin with, but this is me trying to find the silver lining) because all the time I spent with Tuff he always got me through something. Always took my mind off of things that bothered me. Work problems disappeared, family drama disappeared, just me and my horse, and the days that I did get to ride him, he carried me around, proud as a peacock that he was able to be ridden again, and everything through the ears of my red headed son, uh-em, horse was right and perfect. Nothing could touch me. I was definately bitten by the horse bug a long time ago, and once you've been bitten, nothing can take it away. So if anyone reading this has a friend, family member in love with horses, it's too late, the deed is already done. The best thing you can do is to just let it happen. Just let it happen is all the advice I can give you. Boy, that was a long walk down memory lane. Sorry about that...I am a little (okay alot) passionate about all things horsey. So...with that said, I hope everyone has a good Monday, and do try to stay warm :)
Lindsay
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Fabulous
JUST fabulous! That would be a good word for today! I spent 9 hours at a place called Maryland Horse World Expo. I had a very very fun time and enjoyed being surrounded by horsey people. I saw a awesome trick horse trainer, his name was Tommy Turvey, just google him, or go to youtube.com and type his name in and there are some fabulous horse videos of him doing stunts and tricks. He and his horses have also been in the movie Larry the Cable Guy if you've ever seen it. It's amazing at what he can make them do so willingly. Today's demo was on 'laying your horse down', but I was treated by another demonstration where he did a slew of other tricks with a 16 year old paint horse that he bought from an auction when he (the horse) was 4. So very cool.
I know in my last post I said that I would take pictures of Tuff in his new winter gear but y'all it was freezing cold and my fingers didn't feel like freezing off into little crisps, so I didn't take any pictures. It'll be okay, just use your imagination. Tuff is red, blanket is green, pretty colors, there you got a good picture right? Maybe i'll take a picture as I 'de-layer' him and strip him of his fleece blanket liner once it gets above let's say maybe 10. Maybe. Sorry.
And to top off today's fabulousness Uriah tells me to look in the fridge for a surprise. My husband is the best and he got me a hot fudge sundae. YUUUUUUUUM! It hit the spot.
Hope y'all are doing great, try to stay warm.
Lindsay
I know in my last post I said that I would take pictures of Tuff in his new winter gear but y'all it was freezing cold and my fingers didn't feel like freezing off into little crisps, so I didn't take any pictures. It'll be okay, just use your imagination. Tuff is red, blanket is green, pretty colors, there you got a good picture right? Maybe i'll take a picture as I 'de-layer' him and strip him of his fleece blanket liner once it gets above let's say maybe 10. Maybe. Sorry.
And to top off today's fabulousness Uriah tells me to look in the fridge for a surprise. My husband is the best and he got me a hot fudge sundae. YUUUUUUUUM! It hit the spot.
Hope y'all are doing great, try to stay warm.
Lindsay
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